Happy Birthday Caye!

Has it been that long, really? Are you going on year three? I almost forgot your birthday…but not quite. Because exactly a year ago, I was on the road extracting myself out of a car that crashed on my way as I accompanied dsj to buy flowers for your birthday. Yup, that was quite a night. But still not quite close to the night we lost you.

I still miss you. Life’s moved on amazingly. I don’t know how it happened even if there was a crack in the universe. I suppose I’ll spend the rest of my life walking around it, moving around it, but never ever forgetting that the ever-present fissure ay hindi madadaan sa vulcaseal.


Another Caye Story…kind of

Caye claimed that it was his first time to commit a crime for the sake of pasalubong. Thanks for snarfing the Ikea pencils for me.

The truth is, I never find the need to visit the crypt. Because for starters, everytime the chums are around I believe he’s just sweating it out with everyone, playing Guitar Hero WT like there’s no tomorrow. And contrary to what dsj predicts, I think he’ll hang on (maybe it’ll take some time to complete level medium) despite the lack of rhythm in his body…because it’s fun. Because he’ll want to enjoy it because she enjoys it.

Like yesterday, as we were on our way to buy him flowers for his birthday, a speeding headlight-less jeepney rammed into Corinne’s SUV.  We never made it to Dangwa, of course. Because that jeepney brought us spinning; a half turn turtle that ended up on the driver’s side. Caye must have been there because we were unscathed. Mario, who was in the back of the car, wasn’t in straps. The dude could’ve been hurt–but no. Just a banged up shoulder and a nick on his elbow. And for some reason, Corinne had no scratches despite the fact that the car landed first on her side mirror before settling on its side; shattering her window and the windshield. First there was shock, then anger for that reckless driver who seemed to have his own version of the story (mainly that it was our fault), then there is the appreciation that we left that scene only having to worry about the car and nothing else. And then there is gratefulness…because it could’ve been worse.

Grateful that there were people who instantly went up the car to pull us all out. We couldn’t have done it alone because I don’t think I’d have the strength to pull myself out with the car on its side.

Grateful that Corinne’s family came at a moment’s notice. Nary a word on what could’ve been done and only what needed to be done at the moment. Love families.

Grateful for seatbelts, because god knows where we’d have end up without it.

Grateful that the dude has promised to not text while driving anymore. It was an important lesson to learn : they’re after you! be mindful!

Grateful for friends and family who called constantly and asked for the sordid details; because it feels better to share a story that ends well, rather than the other one.

And ironically, had this happened while Caye was still around; he’d probably be the guy I’d call. Always the man for the job. But then again, that trip wouldn’t have happened in the first place.

Caye, it was definitely an interesting way to celebrate your birthday. I’m sorry we weren’t able to get the flowers anymore. I think you would’ve preferred a bouquet of pencils anyway.


A Caye Story

I couldn’t get myself to blog because things have not been normal lately. And it is strange to write about things I normally care about given that my life has just taken on a new turn. Taking baby steps to get on track again. And perhaps the best way to do it is to start connecting my writing to the memory of the person who has been foremost in my mind. This also for Corinne, who is hungry for Caye literature. So I will try to remember as much as I can, in installments.

My first real exposure of Caye was at this coffee place; maybe five years back.  I was sitting across him, and I had nothing to talk about this guy except for one anecdote that I heard from his best friend, Popie. I reserved the small talk when the conversation at the table died down.

“Sharon fan ka pala! Who would’ve thought?” I rattled but there was…

Silence. And a frozen smile.

Fortunately, Popie was there who’s eyes I sought because I didn’t want to be caught a liar.

Popie looks at Caye, I don’t know what looks were exchanged but after 2 seconds, Caye finally responds and says, “Yes. Why ba?”

After the giggles, we were friends.

I miss Caye.

Nobody's mixed 'em like you did!

The most gwapo bartender in the world.


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