Where’s the beast?

I wish there was a way to buy a lure. I need it to punch my gut that will release that exhale, called relief. {Yes, that’s it. I got it!}

I don’t always look for it, I don’t always need it but sometimes I don’t have the luxury of waiting for the beast to come. Like right now, I need the beast so bad.

This goddamn quest is a very strange experience. Because you can only harness the beast for a certain period at a time and then you have to let go.

Perhaps it’s nagtatampo because I’ve been using it for things not worth its presence. Perhaps.

And fine, perhaps this is one of those moments but I really really need something right now.

This bourbon is not enough.

Halika na, dali.

 

 

 

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